Chris: urgh I realize I have no marketable skills. this is SO annoying I hate applying for jobs
me: omg I KNOW
marketable being the key word
i'm in EXACTLY the same boat
1:35 PM as in i will have zero dollars when i return from germany, and somehow i still need to make loan, phone, and insurance payments
Chris: the only thing I could possible do is open a GermanPhilosophical consutancy agency and then turn all my sessions into play... me: hahahaha
du sprichst mir aus der seele
god im even forgetting german
Chris: seriously this is so annoying and I'm looking at places in London and they are RIDICULOUS this one place which I found is my dream house. Sold glass penthouse to RENT just to rent was 1800£
A WEEK
1:36 PM me: oh i believe it sista
Chris: that $12k a month
haha yeah my german is going a bit
I keep having these moments where I think: I'm just going to seel out and become a buisness person. But again I have NO skills
1:37 PM and it's so annoying b/c I know people who are working for banks/goldman sachs etc and they are STUPID and making 809398420 million dollars a min
me: i want to work educational conferences in dc again, but i feel kind of blacklisted because one session ended badly and i didnt get hired back the next summer
um YES
im having a hard time adjusting to the job world
Chris: seriously
urgh. I kind of wish I never left Vienna
1:38 PM me: people like you and me..it's like, well, I know im smart
shouldnt that be enough
haha
i can write you a creative piece
Chris: exactly!
me: um but marketable skills?
certifications/
?
Chris: it's so vexing
me: i feel like im in the same boat you are
1:39 PM and all of the supervisors ive had have been dumb as rocks with ZERO creativity
theyre just specialized
Chris: then I see my one friend who majored in "communications" and is working at a constulancy firm. I'm like "communications" wtf? I can talk to people. I use twitter.
it's SOOO annoying
I hate dumb supervisors
me: because they went to dumb people school where you can actually major in things like being an office worker
i know
1:40 PM it's such shit
Chris: EXACTLY!
me: it's hard to be like, well i majored in how to think
...
Chris: like in Vienna where you go to school to become a waiter.
well hell I could have done that if I was an unimaginative moron
me: hahaha
you are truly speaking my mind right now
1:41 PM you crack me up
Chris: thinking is dangerous! they only want people to think the same way they do
me: omg seriously
im kinda pissed that i got let go from my front desk job
it's like being dumped by a loser guy who wasn't good enough for you
Chris: haha
1:42 PM me: and it was based entirely on a feeling
Chris: I shouldn't worry about it. those people sounded like they didn't appreciate your natural genius anyway
me: my supervisor, who ironically was the ONLY person in the office i didnt actually do work for so who never saw what i was doing for gazillions of other university people, was like i dont get the feeling that youre the right fit for the position
everyone else was like wtf surprised
1:43 PM i went in 3 days later for something different in the building and they didnt know id been let go
they were like what? i thought you just took the day off
yeah it sucked
Chris: omg what asses these people are
1:44 PM me: it was 100% admin in the most formal business office at au
it's just their environment...it's very rigid and business-like
clinical
uptight
completely non-social
Chris: it's like the whole job world is the upside-down world of how things should be. If you're smart and creative you are fired but if you are a mindless drone with the intelligence of a 3 ton beluga whale then you are a "perfect fit"
1:45 PM me: hahahaha
everything you are saying is perfect
Chris: painful I can't deal with uptight clinical settings
me: the girl who...granted im really good friends with...but who is like the office darling and was making twice what i was went to the university of charleston
was drugged out the whole four years
Chris: haha it's just so frustrating in the past week I've applied to something like 8 jobs... haven't heard a thing back from them AHHHH and this time I'm actually doing somehting I have experience in like teaching
1:46 PM me: and asks me the meaning of basic vocab and idiomatic expressions i use
but a week isnt long
Chris: AHHH! wtf. I should have majored in STUPID when I went to college. I'd be a millionare
me: people take forever to get back
hahahaha
can i please quote you on fb?
1:47 PM Chris: I know I'm just really impatient now I have to leave bama.
haha but of course
me: because honestliy, this convo is making me feel so much better
less alone im what ive been thinking about since leaving vienna
Chris: yes venting is good
1:48 PM me: and dc, while i love it for its physical layout and its cultural hotspots, is probably one of the worst places work-wise for me to be in right now
because talk about bullshit office jobs
and corporate blah blah
it's the hub of all that i despise
1:49 PM Chris: yeah I imagine all the sentorial political wannabes are infernally annoying
1:50 PM I keep coming up with 5 year plans of my life. Basically I think now in 5 years if I don't have a good job, an extant social life etc etc I am just going to sell everything I have and move back to Vienna and die in a coffee house of old age
1:51 PM me: hahahaha
you are in fine form today chris martin
1:52 PM Chris: haha I just feel I need to vent. I really have an urge to walk into a glass store and break everything haha
maybe I should go bang some drums
1:53 PM me: hahahha
sorry im being the person i usually detest in just answering hahahha
but you are really making me laugh
the hahas are real
i want to like copy/paste the part about selling everything and dying in a vienna coffee house of old age
1:54 PM and make it my new religious beliefs on fb
Chris: HAHA brilliant
1:55 PM me: ive only been in ohio for about 18 hours and already im turning into an old person
i spent 30 minutes bird watching out the window
Chris: I don't know why I'm waiting until I'm 30... in fact I have often thought about going back to Vienna, but I feel now, so soon, it would be like giving up haha
me: there was a hawk
1:56 PM well money is definitely the factor for me
Chris: OMG I bird watched today too! haha there were all these birds migrating I guess and they were so noisy
me: i should be saving the only remaining $ i have left in this world and using it to eventually move there, not visit, but im impatient
haha nice
1:57 PM my mom and stepdad have like 6 bird feeders outside the back window
they get alllll kinds of birds and squirrels and chipmunks and hawks and groundhogs
i watched a squirrel drink from the dirty bird bath
and then watched the hawk try to eat a bird
Chris: haha delightful
me: did i tell you i pet a squirrel in dc???
1:58 PM Chris: mean nasty hawk, I do like them though
me: one of my life-long dreams, fulfilled
yeah but they have to eat too
1:59 PM im going to do something i havent done in years and exercise
theyve got a sort of home gym in their basement
Chris: oh nice!
I should exercise too but first I should have some lunch
me: sounds like something i would say
2:00 PM Chris: hehe a wise thing to say indeed
me: you sir are hilarious
Chris: the only thing that's amusing is the truth, for that's all I say hehe
Showing posts with label friends. Show all posts
Showing posts with label friends. Show all posts
Friday, December 18, 2009
Sage advice from Brittney
8:55 AM everything shapes you so that way when you find what you really want, you're ready
8:57 AM hmmm i need to go shopping
i need to find a coat
and new jeans
and get paid
8:58 AM me: are you sure things dont just fuck you up and cripple you emotionally, preventing you from ever getting what you want?
lol
Brittney: nah.. i think that when you find it, you know
8:59 AM me: what if youve already found it, had it, and it didnt work out but instead ended disastrously
Brittney: then it wasn't it
9:00 AM me: be my life coach
9:01 AM Brittney: haha
you just need to find a nice guy, in a place where you want to be, who you can date a little to see if you like him first
9:02 AM me: :(
i put so much pressure on situations so fast
9:03 AM Brittney: yeah slow down, enjoy it a little me: i never give myself time to see if i like someone, i just push to see if they like me
slow down, you crazy child
ah
9:04 AM Brittney: yeah don't do that
me: i feel like if i dont push situations, nothing will ever happen
9:06 AM Brittney: yeah it will, you just have to give it time
and then it's better9:07 AM me: true cause when you know somethings happened because youve basically forced it, its hard to enjoy it
ps youve become my new religious views
9:08 AM they change every few days
Brittney: exactly, it's a lot better if it happens on it's own
9:10 AM me: and it will???
Brittney: yeah and if it doesn't, then it's not supposed to9:11 AM me: so im supposed to be alone?
Brittney: enjoy the surprise of it all :) it's much more gratifying than forcing things to happen
no, but sometimes we have to be alone for a while
me: its been a while
9:12 AM Brittney: but you haven't given this chill out relaxed approach a chance :)
9:13 AM me: true
its not in my nature
Brittney: yeah
9:14 AM me: but you can work at it??
9:15 AM Brittney: yeah a little
me: i feel like im in a similar situation as the last one that made me miserable
9:16 AM where theres a crush but i dont actually want to be with the person
Brittney: then why waste your time?
me: but i like force things just so i can feel bad when they dont work out
because stressing out over dead ends appeals to me?
Brittney: hmm not exciting ;)
9:18 AM me: so your life advice
1) make myself chill the fuck out
9:19 AM 2) wait for things to happen
Brittney: yep
believe that good things will happen to you
don't rush
pretty much what i live by ;)
me: believe huh?
9:25 AM Brittney: yep
me: how long have you believed that
9:26 AM Brittney: i don't know.. always?
you have to believe that you deserve something great
9:27 AM because if you don't believe that, it will be harder for others to
9:28 AM me: see this is like so counterintuitive for me
but i know youre right
im just wondering why i did not grow up with this
Brittney: i have no idea
9:29 AM me: when i have conversations like this where people tell me what seems so obvious i feel like a retarded person
9:30 AM Brittney: nah
it's hard
9:31 AM me: i really appreciate you talking me thru my crazy
9:32 AM slash putting up with it
Brittney: no problem
8:57 AM hmmm i need to go shopping
i need to find a coat
and new jeans
and get paid
8:58 AM me: are you sure things dont just fuck you up and cripple you emotionally, preventing you from ever getting what you want?
lol
Brittney: nah.. i think that when you find it, you know
8:59 AM me: what if youve already found it, had it, and it didnt work out but instead ended disastrously
Brittney: then it wasn't it
9:00 AM me: be my life coach
9:01 AM Brittney: haha
you just need to find a nice guy, in a place where you want to be, who you can date a little to see if you like him first
9:02 AM me: :(
i put so much pressure on situations so fast
9:03 AM Brittney: yeah slow down, enjoy it a little me: i never give myself time to see if i like someone, i just push to see if they like me
slow down, you crazy child
ah
9:04 AM Brittney: yeah don't do that
me: i feel like if i dont push situations, nothing will ever happen
9:06 AM Brittney: yeah it will, you just have to give it time
and then it's better9:07 AM me: true cause when you know somethings happened because youve basically forced it, its hard to enjoy it
ps youve become my new religious views
9:08 AM they change every few days
Brittney: exactly, it's a lot better if it happens on it's own
9:10 AM me: and it will???
Brittney: yeah and if it doesn't, then it's not supposed to9:11 AM me: so im supposed to be alone?
Brittney: enjoy the surprise of it all :) it's much more gratifying than forcing things to happen
no, but sometimes we have to be alone for a while
me: its been a while
9:12 AM Brittney: but you haven't given this chill out relaxed approach a chance :)
9:13 AM me: true
its not in my nature
Brittney: yeah
9:14 AM me: but you can work at it??
9:15 AM Brittney: yeah a little
me: i feel like im in a similar situation as the last one that made me miserable
9:16 AM where theres a crush but i dont actually want to be with the person
Brittney: then why waste your time?
me: but i like force things just so i can feel bad when they dont work out
because stressing out over dead ends appeals to me?
Brittney: hmm not exciting ;)
9:18 AM me: so your life advice
1) make myself chill the fuck out
9:19 AM 2) wait for things to happen
Brittney: yep
believe that good things will happen to you
don't rush
pretty much what i live by ;)
me: believe huh?
9:25 AM Brittney: yep
me: how long have you believed that
9:26 AM Brittney: i don't know.. always?
you have to believe that you deserve something great
9:27 AM because if you don't believe that, it will be harder for others to
9:28 AM me: see this is like so counterintuitive for me
but i know youre right
im just wondering why i did not grow up with this
Brittney: i have no idea
9:29 AM me: when i have conversations like this where people tell me what seems so obvious i feel like a retarded person
9:30 AM Brittney: nah
it's hard
9:31 AM me: i really appreciate you talking me thru my crazy
9:32 AM slash putting up with it
Brittney: no problem
My Zen reminders
-The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho
-"The Climb" by Miley Cyrus
-How I Met Your Mother
-Brittney Hansen's life philosophy
"Haven't Met You Yet" by Michael Buble
-"The Climb" by Miley Cyrus
-How I Met Your Mother
-Brittney Hansen's life philosophy
"Haven't Met You Yet" by Michael Buble
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Things I'm thankful for back in Ohio
This one's a little harder, but there are plenty to choose from.
-free places to stay
-all the amazing food I can eat
-warmth
-family who, while they might hate each other, all relate to me in their own ways
-my wonderful friends stateside
-the four fabulous kitties at my dad's who make me so happy
-easy access to Mexican food
-being able to buy Munich-brewed beers and drink them on the couch
-multi-channel television
-holiday feasts and gatherings
-being able to share my adventures
-big, comfortable beds
-my mom's beautifully ornamented Christmas tree (including the Vienna 2007 ornament I brought back when I lived there)
-the cute little Christmas tree my brother set up and decorated at my dad's house
-being able to drive!!
-jamming out to the radio while driving!
-eating all I can for free
-doing laundry for free
-being able to meet up with friends I haven't seen in a long time
-ample time to relax and figure things out
-possibilities
-free places to stay
-all the amazing food I can eat
-warmth
-family who, while they might hate each other, all relate to me in their own ways
-my wonderful friends stateside
-the four fabulous kitties at my dad's who make me so happy
-easy access to Mexican food
-being able to buy Munich-brewed beers and drink them on the couch
-multi-channel television
-holiday feasts and gatherings
-being able to share my adventures
-big, comfortable beds
-my mom's beautifully ornamented Christmas tree (including the Vienna 2007 ornament I brought back when I lived there)
-the cute little Christmas tree my brother set up and decorated at my dad's house
-being able to drive!!
-jamming out to the radio while driving!
-eating all I can for free
-doing laundry for free
-being able to meet up with friends I haven't seen in a long time
-ample time to relax and figure things out
-possibilities
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Things I'm thankful for from my Munich/Vienna trip
Things I’m thankful for about this trip:
lockers in train stations
boys who carry my heavy bags
no open-container law
Weissbier/Hefeweizen
friends I can stay with
Hiro’s phone
meeting Hiro
Hiro’s generosity
Kaesekrainer Hot Dogs
Punsch und Gluehwein
Christkindlmaerkte
Viennese accents
Christine, Jordan, and Melissa
their tea
their flashlight
their food
their Prosecco
their generosity
their desire to spend lots of time with me
gently falling snow
Bussi from Melissa
how excited Melissa was to see me
how nice Christine is and how much she cares
Uno und Spongebob spielen
nostalgia
beautiful architecture
das erste Bezirk
new experiences that, while not particularly my cup of tea, made me more aware and well-rounded (i.e., whorehouse)
getting hit on
how much my friends back home missed me
peoples’ excitement for me
living fast and by the seat of my pants and in the moment, thus not ruminating on shit of the past
jeans tucked into high boots
my new coat
my other bar/club conquests
my boldness
It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia
seeing how boys live
making boy friends
getting more comfortable around boys
David
HP
free Wi Fi
being able to show Ty around my old haunts
Renee
planning my next steps in life
free drinks
being able to spend money on going out because I’m not paying rent
the Thai restaurant in Munich
Wiener Deewan
Taschentuecher
feeling progress with my German
being told my German is good
Melissa’s progress in English
how pretty she is!
feigning confidence until I feel it
developing socially in new/different circles
setting off independently and getting around on my own
getting more interpersonal experience to continue teaching me the big life lesson that I can’t change people
Eleanor
Brittney
teaching myself to live by Brittney’s religion of believing you deserve great things and that great things will come when they are supposed to
the hilarious story of my Christmas mugs and umbrella being in Zsolt’s apartment
the crazy coincidence of going out at Alser Strasse
the crazy coincidence of Ty coming to Vienna
crazy coincidences period
The world is open to me. It can be terrifying if I approach it as something that is terrifying. It can be Sturm-und-Drang if I approach it as something that is Sturm-und-Drang. It can be amazing, exciting and fulfilling if I approach it as something that is amazing, exciting and fulfilling.
the influence of being around/talking to people who demand what they want and what they believe they deserve
lockers in train stations
boys who carry my heavy bags
no open-container law
Weissbier/Hefeweizen
friends I can stay with
Hiro’s phone
meeting Hiro
Hiro’s generosity
Kaesekrainer Hot Dogs
Punsch und Gluehwein
Christkindlmaerkte
Viennese accents
Christine, Jordan, and Melissa
their tea
their flashlight
their food
their Prosecco
their generosity
their desire to spend lots of time with me
gently falling snow
Bussi from Melissa
how excited Melissa was to see me
how nice Christine is and how much she cares
Uno und Spongebob spielen
nostalgia
beautiful architecture
das erste Bezirk
new experiences that, while not particularly my cup of tea, made me more aware and well-rounded (i.e., whorehouse)
getting hit on
how much my friends back home missed me
peoples’ excitement for me
living fast and by the seat of my pants and in the moment, thus not ruminating on shit of the past
jeans tucked into high boots
my new coat
my other bar/club conquests
my boldness
It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia
seeing how boys live
making boy friends
getting more comfortable around boys
David
HP
free Wi Fi
being able to show Ty around my old haunts
Renee
planning my next steps in life
free drinks
being able to spend money on going out because I’m not paying rent
the Thai restaurant in Munich
Wiener Deewan
Taschentuecher
feeling progress with my German
being told my German is good
Melissa’s progress in English
how pretty she is!
feigning confidence until I feel it
developing socially in new/different circles
setting off independently and getting around on my own
getting more interpersonal experience to continue teaching me the big life lesson that I can’t change people
Eleanor
Brittney
teaching myself to live by Brittney’s religion of believing you deserve great things and that great things will come when they are supposed to
the hilarious story of my Christmas mugs and umbrella being in Zsolt’s apartment
the crazy coincidence of going out at Alser Strasse
the crazy coincidence of Ty coming to Vienna
crazy coincidences period
The world is open to me. It can be terrifying if I approach it as something that is terrifying. It can be Sturm-und-Drang if I approach it as something that is Sturm-und-Drang. It can be amazing, exciting and fulfilling if I approach it as something that is amazing, exciting and fulfilling.
the influence of being around/talking to people who demand what they want and what they believe they deserve
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
